i wanna take private. i could feel that more things are coming. i cant just relax like that. i dont know how to say. jas said my mum will feel even upset than me. yes, even though she dont know how am i feeling i think she is upset too that i can’t get into a poly. hai. i can’t imagine how it will when i enter into private sch. i will be facing even more stress and situation. $$$,studies stress,personal stress.. jas asked me to prayed over 3 options:-

1. Private Dip

2. ITE

3. Retake ‘O’ Lvl

options 2 &3 i will never imagine or think about. im tired of studying for O levels again. the subject.. i think i will feel more depress if i were to retake. i will think sillysilly stuff. im too negative am i? ITE worst. i cant overcome myself. my emotions like what jas said. 2&3 will make me feel depress or upset with myself. idk!!!! it seems like i can’t accept the factttttttttt!! I CAN’T!!! whyyyy???? so now my heart only move toward private dip. im not sure if this is what God wants me to go. or isit my desire and feeling. it seems like im avoiding 2&3. i just want private. i need to prayyyy

God gives me directionnnn

Move away the mountain in my Heart.

<3 overcomes fear

Faith without love is nothinggg