sometimes i wonder am i a good leader?am i suit? i know that i shldn’t doubt on this. but…

Just now receive a msg from Jasmine. i knw that in her msg she is refering to me. My Con. Grp is the only grp that has members being transfer. so its obviously me. i feel that im not doing my part well. and im not doing enough. idk! i feel that i dont know how to. and i cant handle it when im having other prob with myself and etc. This position is not easy. yes.

am i putting in the effort? or am i just lazy? ahhh.. i know i shldnt give up on this position just lyk tt. if i give up it will cus prob to Jas. when such things happen i dont have a person where i can share my thoughts & feeling to. i mean in terms of leadership issue or spiritual issue i can only talk to Jasmine. but there are still things that i cant share with her totally. i really dont lyk the feeling of being discipled? by jasmine? i will feel that i am not up to the standard and abillity. and i know its true la.

am i really suitable for this position?

is this what i like ?

am i doing it with all my heart, my love for God?

Lord, you tell me? ~